Looking For A Greater Soul

Evergreen Fav #2

2010-01-03T23:09:00.000-08:00

Will you be there by Michael Jackson!

Hold Me
Like The River Jordan
And I Will Then Say To Thee
You Are My Friend

Carry Me
Like You Are My Brother
Love Me Like A Mother
Will You Be There?

Weary
Tell Me Will You Hold Me
When Wrong, Will You Scold Me
When Lost Will You Find Me?

But They Told Me
A Man Should Be Faithful
And Walk When Not Able
And Fight Till The End
But I'm Only Human

Everyone's Taking Control Of Me
Seems That The World's
Got A Role For Me
I'm So Confused
Will You Show To Me
You'll Be There For Me
And Care Enough To Bear Me

(Hold Me)
(Lay Your Head Lowly)
(Softly Then Boldly)
(Carry Me There)

(Lead Me)
(Love Me And Feed Me)
(Kiss Me And Free Me)
(I Will Feel Blessed)

(Carry)
(Carry Me Boldly)
(Lift Me Up Slowly)
(Carry Me There)

(Save Me)
(Heal Me And Bathe Me)
(Softly You Say To Me)
(I Will Be There)

(Lift Me)
(Lift Me Up Slowly)
(Carry Me Boldly)
(Show Me You Care)

(Hold Me)
(Lay Your Head Lowly)
(Softly Then Boldly)
(Carry Me There)

(Need Me)
(Love Me And Feed Me)
(Kiss Me And Free Me)
(I Will Feel Blessed)

[Spoken]
In Our Darkest Hour
In My Deepest Despair
Will You Still Care?
Will You Be There?
In My Trials
And My Tribulations
Through Our Doubts
And Frustrations
In My Violence
In My Turbulence
Through My Fear
And My Confessions
In My Anguish And My Pain
Through My Joy And My Sorrow
In The Promise Of Another Tomorrow
I'll Never Let You Part
For You're Always In My Heart.

I Love You, Brother! :)

2010-01-03T15:47:00.000-08:00

Today, I woke up to the chill of the morning breeze and the sounds of dropping rain. Before I woke , my little brother already got ready, anxious to get into his new school ( Siglap Sec, thanks to MOE stupid rules ) and I knew he didnt like the school! I could see from his face that he was a wee bit scared to get his legs into the gates of that doomed school!:( I woke up, bathed, changed, prayed and breakfasted...before sitting in my father's Toyota Wish to send my brother off. My mom did the same! Through the journey he didnt smile and I hugged him and gave him words of comfort before letting him off to independence!

Brother, Mom, Dad, me, Is, Kakak will always be there for you for what you've been through...We love you much. I pray to the One and Only to protect my brother from whatever nonsense that prevails in that school. Protect him!

Evergreen Fav #1

2010-01-02T07:26:00.000-08:00

Waiting for the wedding

I follow the Moskva
Down to Gorky Park
Listening to the wind of change
An August summer night
Soldiers passing by
Listening to the wind of change

The world is closing in
And did you ever think
That we could be so close, like brothers
The future's in the air
I can feel it everywhere
I'm blowing with the wind of change

[Chorus:]
Take me to the magic of the moment
On a glory night
Where the children of tomorrow dream away
In the wind of change

Walking down the street
Distant memories
Are buried in the past forever

I follow the Moskva
Down to Gorky Park
Listening to the wind of change

Take me to the magic of the moment
On a glory night
Where the children of tomorrow share their dreams
With you and me
Take me to the magic of the moment
On a glory night
Where the children of tomorrow dream away
In the wind of change

The wind of change blows straight
Into the face of time
Like a stormwind that will ring
The freedom bell for peace of mind
Let your balalaika sing
What my guitar wants to say
Saaay!

[Solo]

Take me to the magic of the moment
On a glory night
Where the children of tomorrow share their dreams
With you and me
Take me to the magic of the moment
On a glory night
Where the children of tomorrow dream away
In the wind of change

27 sins!

2010-01-01T09:07:00.000-08:00

Mum, I love you!
Below are the list of things I wonderfully received during my birthday !!!
1)Father: $ 60 ( I asked for $ )
2) Mother: $ 20 ( I asked for $$$ )
3) Sister: A box of one-drop perfumes
4) Brother #1: A treat at Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf
5) Brother #2: $7 ( I asked for more $$$$$ )
6) Nenek: RM 50
7) Nani: $ 20( $ )
8) Cik Enab: $10 ( I just love kachings )
9 ) Ibu Rose: Branded Ankle Socks
10 ) Auntie Nor: Dog tag with engraved name!!!
11) Kalacik: $20 + Tshirt
12) Mamu Kini family: Perfume + Shoe bag

13) Mamu Bay family: $20 + that yellow shirt in pic #2

These are just the sides. What I need most are the hugs, the kisses, the loves, the cares, the concerns, the smiles, the comforts, the lives, the pats, and the prayers!!! God bless!

26/12/2009

2010-01-01T08:27:00.000-08:00

Indeed, it was a memorable birthday celebration!!! For the first time in 16 years, I was treated to a perfect lunch at Mutiara Hotel, Johore Bahru.( Thanks Kalacik )..With PSgrandmummy, aunties, uncles and paternal cousins. It was the epitome of a smashing celebration! That two-day trip to JB with family by my side is just a boomzy event I will never forget for a long time!:) What I am happy most is that I received a number of sms-es wishing me from great friends like Nisya, shazana, Maran, prabhu, Kenneth, and many more!!! ( besides the many wishes on FB, I wont say how much cause i dont wanna EKSYEN ) ! I didnt expect some people like many juniors to wish me on FB but they did! I expected some CLOSE classmates to at least post 2 words ( HappyBirthday ) on my wall but they didnt...Disappointed indeed ( frankly ) ! My next blog post will about what I received on my birthday!:) and my new year resolutions!!!

PS: I am in love with Aqilah's pm on fb---Judge me all you want but keep the verdict to yourself!

Ayah Dan Ibu ( Parents )

2009-12-23T21:43:00.000-08:00

Sometimes, when I go through my albums and see pictures like this, I will recall the happy moments of yesterdays. The Saturdays when my father would bring us to Seletar Reservoir for jogging (picture) . The everynights in which my father would turn me upside down on the mattress so I feel like an acrobat! The Sundays in which father would bring me and younger brother for a swim...And mama would always pack food for us!!! If I have superpower, indeed I 'll choose to be able to rewind time and to pause at wonderful moments!:) Time is passing really fast and idk why I feel scared. Father and mother, this post is dedicated especially for the both of you! Only God knows how much I love you ! And everyday I pray that God bless the both of you with prosperity and longevity!!!

Your children need your presence more than your presents.

What a newbie I am!!!:)

2009-12-23T09:44:00.000-08:00

I took 3 hours to finally come up with this ...Even this, not beautiful. But what my papa always reminds me slow and steady wins the race!!! Idaffi is going to learn slowly step by step to acquire IT-knowledge...I admit I am a technology-idiot, unlike my elder brother who knows everything about d'gadget called computer...27sins.org ( his very own website ) !!! Sometimes, love is not present in the family and we have to turn to friends for help...So God met me with three beautiful single ladies-Shazana, Siti and Nisya! Shazana,you really taught me a lot!!! and words cant express how much "Thank U" i want to blurt from my mouth to you. I predict that blogging is going to be a very meaningful pastime for Idaffi!!! To those beautiful people, Friends Forever!

A true friend is someone who thinks that you are a good egg even though he knows that you are slightly cracked

Approaching Sixteen!:)

2009-12-23T08:45:00.000-08:00

As I approach sweet sixteen, I took a wee bit of time to reflect on myself, my life journey…I thought of how useful I have been as a human being to my lovely God-given family, my beloved friends ( whom i have started to love more than my family sometimes ), the community, my beloved school ( Dunman Secondary School ) …Indeed, i feel sooooo useless…I wish to be OBAMA, i wish to be like Mdm Rozila ( my sec 2 teacher who touches my heart everytime she entered the class ), i wish to be Mr Bernard, i wish to be Mrs Neo, and my parents!!!:) I need to be like those people…I have purposes in life…and I will share with you people one by one as I start a new hobby- blogging! I feel that time is an evil bitch that never wait for me, for me to be a better person, for me to look for a greater soul, for me to dig deep enough to know whats right and whats wrong!!!:) God bless!

P.S #1: my bdae is on 26/12

Sometimes I wish I were a little kid again, skinned knees are easier to fix than broken hearts.